Monday, 12 December 2016

What I do not want. .

- not achieving my goals
- being lost internally
- having a bad end to my life
- my grave to be a dark place
- spiritual bankruptcy
- negative people surrounding me
- feeling lonely
- feeling empty
- hypocrisy anywhere near me
- to displease my parents
- to make them worried
- to displease my Creator
- to become forgetful of Him
- to be lazy
- to hold any grudges against anyone
- poor quality relationships
- to stay in the West any longer than is necessary
- to be selfish
- to be heartbroken
- to be financially dependent on others
- to feel any animosity or jealousy towards anyone
- people to overstep my limits
- rude children
- DT
- debts
- to die in a non-Muslim country
- to be afraid to speak my mind
- to wrong or hurt anyone
- to judge people wrongly
- to assume things without proof
- my mind & heart disagreeing and clashing
- my happiness to be in the hands of others
- to see life negatively
- to be superficial in my feelings, in my choices ect
- procrastination to impact my life negatively
- dunya to enter my heart
- to hear music
- to entertain false hopes to somebody else
- to invest myself emotionally unless ready
- arrogance and boastfulness
- instability (financial, health, family)
- to have a C-section
- to be hospitalised
- others to have the ability to influence my decisions and life choices (in a bad way)
- to live by myself again
- to be weak physically, mentally, spiritually
- to be unable to combat my desires if they conflict with religious duties
- to be unable to stand for the truth
- to become fat or morbidly obese
- to have chronic illnesses
- unreliable people in my entourage
- to feel hatred in my heart
- to be famous
- to have any more embarrassing moments
- to hear/listen the news
- to know what's happening in the world
- to be a miserly person who doesn't spend in the way of Allah
- a bad friend, sibling,daughter
- anyone to read my journals
- to talk about people or pathetic things
- to be unapproachable
- to be misunderstood
- to miss the opportunities Allah (swt) gives me to better myself
- to become impatient
- to become ungrateful
- to lose hope and feel dissatisfied
- the angels to dislike me
- to waste my time
- to waste efforts
- to waste money
- to be materialistic
- to feel out of touch with myself
- to put myself down
- to be harsh
- to regret anything in my life
- to become a pessimist
- to become a worrier
- my faith to decrease
- an unfulfilled life
- unanswered du'as
- to lose things that I need
- a wedding party
- a Farax I can't connect with
- a selfish Farax
- a hardened heart
- becoming a reckless person
- to lose my connection with my Lord
- to belittle my sins
- to think I'm guaranteed Jannah
- to talk about people or things that don't concern me
- to be lonely
- to be a coward
- to die without achieving my dreams
- to become careless about things that matter
- mood swings
- cold food
- to live like a headless chicken
- to compare my life and my choices to other people
- to carry any judgement towards other people
- to allow Shaytan to win the battle
- to receive my Book of Deeds behind my back
- not being able to see and speak with the Lord
- to become too busy from the Qur'an
- to ever forget what I have memorised
- to go back to my life before the Qur'an
- to waste anymore precious time
- to ignore my life mission
- to live without joy and contentment
- to have many friends (I don't anyway)
- to be taken advantage of
- to be lied to
- to be deceived by others or by the glitters of this world
- to break a bone or lose a limb
- to be addicted to anything
- to make stupid rushed decisions
- to have to think so long to decide what to wear every day
- tabarruj
- evil eye on myself or my loved ones
- to live far from my family
- not to a have a best friend (applications open)
- to see everything negatively
- to see the cup half empty
- to look grumpy
- a day to pass without laughing
- to not have a good day every single day
- to wake up late in the morning
- to speak to myself negatively
- to cloud my mind with futility
- to ever think of myself as better than anyone
- to praise myself in anything
- dishonesty
- unfaithfulness
- to break my promises
- to break someone's heart
- to be the reason of someone's tears
- to be the reason of someone's misguidance
- to be the reason of someone's renouncing the Truth
- a source of problems
- to eat unhealthy foods
- a poor quality lifestyle
- to be inactive
- not to be into fitness
- to be uncomfortable in my own skin
- breakouts
- not to travel regularly
- not to have adventures
- a boring life
- a life without reading books
- my books to be taken away from me
- to lose the ability to read
- to lose any of my 5 senses
- to be physically disabled
- to lose my sanity
- to lose my loved ones too soon
- to not meet my soulmate
- to have co-wives (sorry girls)
- to be sterile
- my partner to be sterile
- to have too much worldly concerns and worries
- to forget my purpose in life
- to become misguided
- to meet the wrong people in life
- to pretend to be someone I'm not
- to complain about silly things
- to say anything bad or use offensive words
- to hurt anyone's feelings by maybe saying a criticism too harshly
- to being able to be listened to
- to being given the time for my thoughts to be expounded upon
- to categorised into something I'm not
- to be misunderstood by the people I love
- to be unable to open up deeply



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